and i am at the crossroads, pressure pressure
so nice right -.- no prizes for guessing that yes, i feel pressured. i feel pressured about decisions, about whether i should join student council next year. its like i have this ideal, but as u know, things always turn out far from the ideal. and so its a gamble, i dont want to waste another year and a half if the gamble doesnt pay off u know. haha i cant believe im actually in relatively ok spirits when i talk about this, just a little burdened but not entirely frustrated or anything along those lines. of course i see obstacles, the same obstacles at this year, and ive got to weigh out whether its worth risking the possibility of colliding with those obstacles again.haha i wonder whether i can maneuver things into what i feel is necessary for the council while keeping myself safe from taking any gambles. hahaha. dont nag me and tell me u cant gain without taking risks. haha see how skillful first. and so why do i feel pressured? i guess its because the others are so involved with orientation and all. and im just taking a break and having fun. haha...that was originally what i wanted..to take a break and have fun. but now...after seeing so much potential in student councl and feeling pressured coz im the only one not in the loop, i dont know.. im rethinking that. i feel stressed. stressed to make a decision.lol.its interesting how a few words can do so much to a picture. i am wondering what next year is going to be like. i just wish we could go out and have more fun...the past 2 weeks have been great man. so good, and im happy to have made so many friends=) ben, alloy, cherns, chris, cheryl and mel..and matt...and jer..so happening they are. haha and yes..i have just been exposed to good country music. its such good stuff. much happiness it brings.
have a great new year everyone=)
attack of the blob who haunts my table.and so,
"may your days be so merry..and merry...and white"
posted by gneh-snah @ 7:21 AM
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